As my post seem to take days to write instead of the hours it normally takes, I find myself stopping to stare into space, take a nap, or another trip to the bathroom. Well, I'm pregnant and beginning to feel it! Yes, this little fig sized being swimming within the depths my belly has caused my entire world to be flipped upside down. The idea that at this very moment "the kids" life is being created, knitted, fastened together within my womb-is amazing. Every time I see the monitor with its body growing and heart beating, I am in awe of the life we've been in trusted with.
So, what does it look like to be 11 weeks pregnant? Well, it's been a bit rough and no, I will not be making a monthly Pinterest chalk board to tell you every single detail about this pregnancy. Sorry, but I just don't have the time or gumption. Nausea, dizziness, a trip to the ER, more medications then I can keep track of, and bills rolling in seems to be our new norm these days. I crave fruit and drink water like a camel. Caffeine and sweets-except ice cream-are pretty much in the yucky category for me. My mood swings are unreal and I have to say, Nick is quite the trooper. There are times when I tell him that even I don't know what I want! Apparently this is normal???
Normal. A word that really does not sit well with me when talking about my pregnancy. There's been nothing normal about how we got pregnant, how I'm farther than the "normal" person should be, or how we are responding to our news. It's weird, but I really don't want to be like every other "normal" pregnant lady out there obsessing over the nursery, counting the days, pinning phantom dreams to pin boards, living for the next doctor's appointment. We do not know anything about whether or not breastfeeding is the best option for us, what our "birth plan" entails, or what kind of "parenting style" we will have. We just found out we're pregnant after 9 years people, give us a break!
We have however found a doctor that we both trust and like. He's pretty passionate about his patients and we've heard nothing but great things about him. We love his laid back style and attitude towards pregnancy-"it's YOUR pregnancy so everyone else's doesn't really pertain to you." Which is a breathe of fresh air to hear, I felt like I was suffocating a bit over here! So really, pregnancy is just another extension of a life we've been given together and we will take it like we always do-one day at time because well, we don't want to miss a thing.
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