Father's Day is here again. Last year I was dreading the day, this year I just tried to ignore the date on the calendar. Yet, here I am at 6:30 in the morning not able to sleep. While it could be because of the mermaid in my belly who does NOT stop moving, I find myself slowly and cautiously thinking of my dad. His and my mom/Chris's anniversary was yesterday and then with Father's day today, it tends to be a little more raw, a little more emotional. I miss him so much! His weekly phone calls to gossip, the scratch of his "beard" when he would kiss us real fast, his strong stance, and giving heart. It especially hard this year as we are finally having the child we all prayed and wished for-him especially. I want nothing more than to have him see me as a mom and Nick as a dad. I think he would get a kick out of it and I hurt knowing my baby girl won't know his goofy grin reserved just for babies. However, I know that he will always be watching over us.
On another note, I am taking the time to try and focus on this guy today. While he may not be a "Father" quite yet, this Daddy is so ready! I can't think of a luckier baby. She is going to be so spoiled and already has his heart. I've never known a man who wanted to be a dad so much. Nick has prayed and studied and just plan wept over Fatherhood and I know he is going to be amazing at it.
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